And I will keep walking till the day I die.
Friday, December 17, 2010
It feels great to be home. Tasmania was full of surprises. I kind of miss it one way or another but I seriously
hate the food there. It's like fish and chips, fish and chips like practically everyday. *shudder* I am not going to Fish and Co. for 2 months. Urk.
Anyway, there were so many animals there. The Superb Blue Wren was like so cute~ the wallabies were jumping for joy technically and I was amazed that the echidnas were such quick crawlers! Seriously. We were like driving in our rented Ford Falcon when we saw an echidna crossing the road. I screamed at my mum to take a photo, Dad was braking and my sis was like "where? where?" When we got out to take a good pic, it was gone. We were like "where the hell is it???" Well, we saw more at Cradle Mountain and boy, was it freezing. And we saw WOMBATS. They are so fat! They had the face of a bear and the body of a beaver. So cute!! I figured it came out only at 4 something because the rest of the day, it was nowhere to be seen. And they only pose for a pic while they are eating. How typical. Platypus was hard to spot. Luckily at Platypus Walk, we met a family who lived nearby. They frequently took their dog, Aggie, for a walk there and saw platypuses there. They were kind of like experts. Thanks to them. We managed to see one. Platypuses, as we found out, were not big. They were kind of small.
Well anyway, I loved the trip until my sister slapped me. On the face. Like when we were waiting for our Melbourne-Singapore flight, I was just teasing her about the wombat she bought. I was saying that if she ate anymore, she will turn into a wombat herself. Then she began hitting me and finally slapped me. Damn her. Can you believe she slapped me? I mean, even though she angered me, I never laid a finger on her. I control my temper, but she hits me and its freaking painful. Damn her.
Hehe, going to set up the Xbox 360 and the Kinect thingy I got for free for signing up the package at Starhub. Hehehehehehe. Bye.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
I don't know what is happening to me. There's this strange emptiness in my heart and I feel that I know how to fill it, but my brain just won't tell me.
Every time I try to think, it gets farther and farther away from my grasp. I can't do this anymore. I am sick of lying to everyone of my true character.
I am tired of this. I want to sit down somewhere and cry my heart out. I want to stop being who I am totally not. I want to stop being such a happy little teenage girl who has such nice friends. I don't deserve this at all. I don't deserve them.
But I cannot stop. I can't, I just can't. I can't admit the loser who I really am. If people could see, like see through right through me, they would know. The fact that I am a loser. I envied those who excelled at many things. I just don't know who I am anymore. Some people knew at the very beginning what they wanted to do; some came across an unexpected opportunity. But me? I am nothing. I just wanted to be finally acknowledged for something that I contributed to the community. But I am scared, frightened. I want to sing my heart out, but...
It doesn't matter now. This ends right here, Lyraeira.
Throw away the sickening past and indulge in a new one with your new shell. But only inside can you confess to your heart.
Shed your last tear and..and..
..condemn yourself to eternal sorrow.
(You have just wasted a few minutes of your precious life reading this freaking post.)
Everyone else have gone camp and I feel so left out. I want to go, but apparently I have to stay home and pack our luggage (more like mine). Can you believe I won't be here for 15 days?? Sad, sad. At least I get to see some devils and indulge myself in nature. I hope there won't be any mosquitoes there because I seriously hate being pierced by an insect! So this is what I plan to bring there:
Lyraeira's list:
1. Pikachu
2. Wallet
3. Notebook
4. Pen
5. Bag
6. Lakerol
7. MP3
8. Bandages (as in the sticky ones, not RC)
9. Binoculars
10. Nintendo DS
12. Charger (for DS)
11. -CANNOT BE SAID-
There! although some stuff I think I am going to kick out, like my MP3, because it does not have a charger. Darn. Fooey. Mehehehe.
Okay, this might be my last post so I bid my friends bye.
BYE FRIENDS OF LYRAEIRA! XD
